Suicidal Thoughts *Help Please*?

I feel that death is my only way out of all the poor decision making I've made in my adolescent years. Growing up was very unique and gifted and could have not asked for better, had the best of friends! At the age of 14 I started playing videogames which got me hooked very quickly. One particular game stood out from the rest "World of Warcraft". My grades started dropping rapidly, I eventually dropped out of school with plans to get my G.E.D which never happened. I pushed all my friends out of my life and locked myself into my room. With very little sleep and starvation, I was heading nowhere good in life. Addiction Is the worst thing to face weither it be narcotics or in my case videogames. Four years have ped and I've accomplished nothing that is gonna help me succeed in life. I have no education and no job history. I'm full of remorse, not knowing what to do to get myself on track again. My mothers significant other is threatening to kick me out. With no job history and being unemployed, I don't know what to do. My mother is full of sorrow and I'm not the same angel she once raised. I'm now 19 years old and feeling very overwhelmed and depressed. Hearing from my mother that my birth was a mistake and a accident only builds up my depression and hatred towards myself. I don't deserve life, trying to adapt to life is very hard after being locked up inside a room for 4 years. With very little education and barely remembering basic math, I'm scared for myself. I have no one to blame but myself for the actions I've made. To wrap this up I just wanna let all you parents out there know that you guys should really take a look at the conditions of your kids if they play videogames. If they play a decent amount of hours a day you should really take a stand and put some rules down. Cause you may think it will never happen to your kid until it does. I can tell you one thing and that is us kids nowadays take control of our parents very darn easily and we think that we know it all but in reality we don't and that is what our parents are for. They are there to raise us right. Lastly for my story I'm posting is not for attention but more towards advice. If you have any advice to help me head down the right path I'd greatly appreciate it. Weither you're someone that works with these type of people everyday or someone that has witness someone that walked in my shoes and ended up recovering and turning out successful, all suggestions/advice/guidance is welcomed. If I keep heading down the same path I'm heading down now, then its only gonna end 2 ways, abandon by my own mother and death. My Email: iwihgag[at]yahoo.com for anyone that wants to leave me suggestions for steps to recover. If you took the time to read this full rant then I very much appreciate it!